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Plant the Seeds (even through brokenness)

“… there is no growth without change, no change without surrender, no surrender without wound – no abundance without breaking. Wounds are what break open the soul to plant the seeds of a deeper growth.” ~The Broken Way, Ann Voskamp

This quote completely describes the life I have been given. Constant change. Wounds left wide open. Surrendering everything -all your hurt, pain, heart, future, relationships, life- to God is one of the hardest things I’ve had to do. However, it is the sweetest and most rewarding experience of my life. God has been molding me into the woman He has designed me to be. Chipping away the wall that has built around my heart. Chipping away the shame and the guilt. Old wounds that have not properly healed being reopened. Clothing me in His grace and faithfulness. Through Him I have found true peace. He has shown me what it feels like to live in His freedom. I know what He has designed me for -a fearfully and wonderfully made life. I’m not saying it has been easy but it has brought my life and my purpose full circle.

I would love to become a counselor for those who have been broken. For those who have no voice. For those who have been used. For those who have known nothing but fear. I have learned that in order to counsel others you have to be broken wide open so that the Lord’s abundant love can fill you completely. My testimony is hard. Even the things that have been redeemed still make my eyes pool with tears. But as I look into the eyes of a homeless woman giving me her only apple, I can not help but cry. Being exposed to the refugees in Europe and the homeless here in Malaysia is completely humbling, completely heartbreaking. When they have almost nothing, they offer you anything and everything they have. They want to know you and your story. They want you to know their story. My heart breaks for the people I have met along my own broken path towards redemption. I cry out to Abba for these people and for their families. While I may have been raised in a culture of ignorance and arrogance, I will no longer continue down that path. Through my healing and the seed that has been cultivated in my life, I will have the opportunity to plant the seed of true life from Jesus Christ into all different nations. The Lord has broken my heart for the nations. While I may not know the future or what the Lord has in store. I do know it will be extraordinary. It will be spirit-filled. It will have purpose.

The kingdom of heaven is coming. So get ready – shout for praise! Reach out to your community and the people around you. Reach out and desire for relationships. Because we are fearfully and wonderfully made, and everyone deserves to know that.

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